Post Challenge Conference

Challenge Conference was the most challenging conference I'd ever been to, particularly the Sunday night talk.. even though none of my issues/problems were directly addressed, the principle of living for God and not for cricket applied to lots of areas of my life. I'd been feeling down for so long but after the talks I think I am reminded to trust God a lot more, not to chase after meaningless things. Recently I'd been rejected for all these internships etc and thats been pretty depressing. The marks for my mid sessions has been pretty bad.. but its ok, not anything important.

I particularly remember Joshua’s challenge on Friday night about desire; whether we have the desire to see others saved, and that we think we are not godly enough, then just BE godly enough, none of us are perfect, and we can all change by the spirit. Pete’s talks on Jonah of course, reminded me of God’s compassion, and to really fear the Lord. Phillip’s talks were the most challenging, firstly for me to be more selfless and willing to talk to strangers, secondly to be less worldly and just remember for the reason for the day that we’re in, and thirdly to stand up as a leader. During lunch on Monday someone encouraged me to be a leader, but I still feel like at CCC, there’s not much opportunity for me to, because a lot of it is institutionalised.

But on Tuesday night I had dinner with Simon and he has a great idea for encouraging more people at CCC, particular in the area of their quiet times. Everyone knows that none of us are really reading the bible, and even though I read it, I know I don’t read it as often as I want to. And when I do, I feel like I’m only doing it in order to gain more knowledge. So if someone asked me.. Why should I read the bible, I don’t know the answer… I wouldn’t wanna say… I think more knowledge, I want to know more.. The textbook answer should be, so I can know get better, and love him more, but I dont really read the bible with that approach, and I don’t know how to start.