Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Whats the goal?

After a whole year of ministry at CBS I realised that I have no idea what the goal is behind my ministry here (besides the obvious one of serving God). What I mean is, what do I want the people in my group to get out of my studies? Most people in my groups, I know will only be with CBS for 1 or 2 years, and I dont really think too much about what happens to them after.

I suppose in my sinfulness, some of the goals I have had for particular people are:
- by the end of the semester, I want them to want to lead a group next semester
- I want them to realise that they should really consider doing full time ministry
- for them to realise they want to be more involved with CBS..

Doing Growth Groups should have made it obvious what the real goal should be, but maybe I never really applied it. Why should I want "growth" for the group? What does it do for them? In terms of a whole life time of teaching that they're going to get, all the sermons they're going to hear, the conferences they're going to go to, my studies surely would not make much of a difference.

Like realistically, if this guy im ministering to is, on a universal scale of Christians, a 5 out of 10 Christian. At the end of his life time, statistically he's more likely than not, only going to be a 6 or 7/10 kind of Christian, and its going to be people like Phillip Jensen and conferences like MYC which is going to move him up a notch, so my role as a bible study leader is to convince people to come MYC and Club 5. (its probably wrong to grade Christians against each other, but if you grade everyone against Jesus, that makes my point even more obvious - what does it matter cos everyone's going to be 0/10 from beginning to end.)

Ok, obviously I don't think that's right, but sometimes that's the way I'm behaving. So what should I be aiming for in my bible study group? Growth? What is growth?? Does it really matter in the context of eternality?

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I think one problem is, I don't care enough about glorifying God, and the eternal importance of every choice you make, to choose God or Satan.